Cool Beans.

These Days

Oh you keep saying nobody cares if i’m here, except me but baby that’s it! - Dr. Dog ‘These Days’

I’m hitting the 10 weeks count down on friday of this week until i begin to travel to New Zealand with my brother and SIL. There are many other count downs too…

• SAAS payment - a week
• HND end (college) - reaching the six weeks mark
• Brother and SIL’s arrival - approx 9 - 10 weeks?
• R+H wedding - 10 weeks on Wednesday
• Travelling to New Zealand begins in 10 weeks on Friday.

My counting isn’t because i’m desperate to leave this place, it isn’t me wishing my life away… it just reminds me why i should cherish each day in my home country…

Organise

I’m almost organised, just;

• travel insurance
• tax refund
• migrant banking
• photocopy important documents
• gather extra funds

i have plenty of time to be complete this mundane list, i’ve never been so in-charge.

I am too excited!

I enjoy the feeling of fear, curiosity and mystery. Oh my…

A Gap Year To Remember

“I hate this town, it’s so washed up and all my friends don’t give a fuck. They’ll tell me that it’s just bad luck. When will I find where I fit in?” - A Day To Remember - All Signs Point To Lauderdale.

Sometime in November 2012 I decided to start saving my pennies for a gap year to New Zealand. If you haven’t heard me speaking about it then you don’t see me often enough. I’m planning on writing about it to maybe help others organize a gap year or to keep my friends and family updated or to just blether about it.

This year, there is an exciting event happening within my family. A WEDDING! We’re gunna be welcoming a new member to the family. This is happening in the beginning of July and a few days after I’ll be on the plane to a land down under.

So why this year?

This year I hope to complete and pass my HND Biomedical Science and obtain my place in 2nd year Glasgow Caledonian University. If I didn’t have these responsibilities I would’ve went when I had enough money for the flights there.

Why New Zealand?

My brother left for New Zealand early in 2012 with his kiwi wife and he has built up his life there with my lovely sister-in-law and they offered their home to me in order to travel and gain some precious time with my family. With a decade between my brother and I, I hope to learn from him. With the comfort of having a family member to support me in an unfamiliar land it just seems like the best thing to do at this age. 

Why a Gap Year?

My friends have done some pretty important things since school, marriage, babies, full time work, university etc and I want to have an experience of my own. People can get stuck in the circle of working through the week and partying at the weekend and I want to experience these things elsewhere.

I organized a lot of things as soon as I made up my mind. I got my passport, visa and told my family but with that I neglected important college work by day dreaming about this opportunity. That is an important lesson I’ve learned - to focus on what is happening in the present and not get carried away with the future. The tickets have to be organized, bank account and IRD number, i have just under 15 weeks to organize all these things. I’m so excited.

What will I do while I’m there?

• bungee jump (maybe!?)
• gain work experience in science

I think I’ll be brave and just dive into new experiences, after all, it’s only 12 months.

CHANGE

gunna stop being a pure whiney bitch about how things haven’t worked out my way yet.

i know that it’s in my hands whether or not i’m happy and if i can’t love who i am just now i’ll just have to man up a bit right?!

it stops here… no, it starts here. bbuh-bye silly sad steph and hello old steph!

Hmmmm…

at times i try too hard to be “perfect” in the sense that i make up my idea of perfect in my head and i am nothing like it. then i slip up and have fun and i feel ridiculous about myself, i actually feel guilt.

my idea of having fun various from reading a book to getting wrecked with my mates and making mistakes with them…

know how that voice in your head that tells you not to do something cause it’s a bad idea? well, i have a friend that does it for me but she’s not with me 24/7 so instead i tell her what i’ve done and then she tells me it was a bad idea and i’ll hate myself for it… which makes me think that i’ve solidly fucked up my life forever. i depend on her too much.

i’d like to think i’m really independent but i hate being in my house alone and i don’t help out with the housework as much as i should. i just sit here, drinking tea and think about studying.

all of these thoughts will not mean a thing in 6months because things change so quickly.

i will:

• study more often
• do the dishes every night
• put away my things when i’m done with them.

i’m so harsh on my mum sometimes but i’d be annoying as fuck as well if my daughter was as self centered as i am.

ARRRRGGGGHHHHH! WHAT COURSE SHOULD I DO AND WHAT UNIVERSITY SHOULD I GO TO?!

I love science so much. i love studying biomedical science but i don’t know where i want to branch off to yet…

all i know is my brain is my ticket to a better life.

Bye-Bye.

Deactivated my facebook account for a little while so i can get to grips with time management for studying. my aim is to return to it this time next week i know it sounds like a really short amount of time but it’s all i need.
I feel facebook takes up too much of my time but on the other hand what else will i be doing?
hopefully studying…

i study to get the best from my education… yet as i answer science based questions in a science based classroom i am mocked for my science based knowledge.

Hey, long time no speak!

i’ve not posted on this for so long.

well that’s gunna change. since the last time i posted on the 30th April, 2011:

i have:

• managed to get myself a job in retail. a little guys clothes shop called officers club with a pretty nice team, when i say “little guys” i mean it’s a small shop not that it is for small dudes… it can be for small dudes, we’ve started doing XS and winter is coming so i’m guessing we’ll get scarfs and scarfs fit everyone… aye steph, shut up. :) 

• witnessed my beautiful best friend become a mother. welcome to the world little haleigh hume. 
• i finished my NQ BIOMEDICAL SCIENCE and i’m now tackling HNC BIOMEDICAL SCIENCE. 

wow, that’s pretty awesome.

sorry, i love you, i promise… words that should mean so much and only be said when you mean it but folk are shit sometimes. 

i hold grudges but i’m not nasty about it. it just bubbles below the surface and i forget about it eventually and still believe the best in everyone. 

it’s just sleepy california.

it’s just sleepy steph. 

i’ve ran out of things to post on here.